STAGE 13 - [voice]

[lastnerv]

I've been putting this off, because I didn't want to deal with it, but it looks like I can't just ignore it any longer. [Without people prodding at him, anyway.]

So, here: I'm sorry about that...whatever that posted as me last month. Like the others, it wasn't really me. Mostly, I think. The whole deal is complicated, and I don't really get it, but I know it said some hurtful things and I thought I should apologize. And to the people who didn't know me before then, I wanted to say I'm not really like that. [most of the time.]

There. That's all..


[Private to Kanaya Maryam]

You win. Happy?

Comments

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[lastnerv]

Hm? Oh, right, you weren't-yeah.

There was this accident with an imPort's powers - I really don't know the details - and people turned... [He's got to pause, because this is not a particularly pleasant memory] turned into monsters, and then they were replaced by messed-up copies of themselves that talked about their deepest feelings. Not in a good way.

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[centurybaby]

So. What. It happened to you?

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[lastnerv]

Yeah.

That's. Really all I want to say about it.

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[centurybaby]

That bad huh?

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[lastnerv]

I tried to hurt Kanaya. So, yeah.

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[centurybaby]

Jesus, Shinji.

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[lastnerv]

It's why I've been-the way I've been, lately. But she said some things and I thought about it and I want to try and-

I don't know. Do something.

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[centurybaby]

So. What's stopping you?

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[lastnerv]

Nothing. I'm working on it now.

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[centurybaby]

Yeah? You gonna clue me the fuck in, or what?

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[lastnerv]

Yeah, but you'll be disappointed. It's nothing major. I'm just trying to reach out more than I used to, that's all.

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[centurybaby]

For a wimp like you, it's a start.

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[lastnerv]

Gee, thanks.

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[centurybaby]

Sure. Someone's gotta tell you what's what.