capeandcowl | 022 ♍ video ♍ yes this is during school hours

[ the scene opens on the desk in kanaya's room, with her sitting behind it. on top of it is a book turned upside down, the cover showing a large man caressing the leg of a woman mostly out of the frame. loose ends, by c.m. guarde, and kanaya seems to be already halfway through it. next to it is a water bottle half-full of a thick, red liquid.

the curtains are drawn, and the only light in the room seems to be coming from her. she has her chin propped up in her hand, and her eyes are heavily lidded, not as made-up as usual. she hasn't left her room all day except to buy this book. ]

It's funny, isn't it. The things one will do out of a hope for love. How much one will ignore, and agonize over, and consciously blind herself to. It comes to a point where you have to wonder whether Kristof is even worth the effort, but nonetheless, Nora makes no sign of relenting. She believes because she has to, and maybe if it should end in the worst possible manner, she will find a way through it still, to remain with the one she loves.

There's something beautiful in that. Tragic, perhaps, but still meaningful. And maybe it that which keeps drawing me back to the series. If Kristof could have someone to love him so much, could there be hope for the rest of us?

[ she turns the book back over, raising an eyebrow at the text. ] But it's still only fiction. That may ultimately be an unfair expectation of the world.

[ she slides over her bottle to take a quick sip from it. ]

Is anyone else reading these?

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But you've approached this whole scenario as someone who wouldn't return the feelings of the person who might be directing something like this to you. What if...you do? What if you always have?

I don't know.

I've never felt that... intensely about someone else. The most "extreme" thing I ever did for love was... okay, it was pretty bad. And I guess I had kind of let my whole life revolve around Trevor. But that's why we should have broken up sooner!

Like I said, I... I still don't think someone should be everything to you. It's not healthy.

Edited 2013-06-13 02:53 (UTC)

Wouldn't it be healthier than being left with nothing?

You still have other people in your life, right? You don't need a relationship to be happy.

Like I'm one to talk, but. Still.

[ yeah, that's a bitter laugh. ]

I haven't been any happier since I've been without one. But you're probably right, might be best to just do without either.

[ and that's an anxious face. ]

Not, like, forever! I'm not saying that. Just to be clear.

But that's what bad romance novels are for, right? To tide you over until you can find someone. A- at least, that's pretty much how I use them.

I don't think they should be a replacement! I mean, I never stopped reading them when I was in a relationship, in fact, that was one of the activities we'd often share.

I think they more explore vicariously the sort of things one wouldn't do at all. [ like dudes. ] Or, well, perhaps the things you aren't that you may someday dream of. [ let's probably not discuss that this is a bdsm novel. ]

Read with someone?! Oh, man. I could never do that, you should see what's in some of the things I read, although that novel is still pretty–

[ Horror slowly dawns on her face as she starts to recall

exactly

what kind of book they're talking about ]

Uh. Intense. N-not that's there's anything wrong with intensity! As long as you're... doing it because you want to...

[ COUGH COUGH let's move on before she starts miming. or elaborating. or, worst of all, both. ]

I guess you're right. Books can — um, broaden your horizons?

Yes. That's...precisely it, really. Numerous horizons to be broadened, certainly. Though for all the intensity to this one, I think it tends to be less physically manifested than the typical fare I read.

[ don't even worry about that one, cyd. she knows all about those kind of books. ]

I suppose the true challenge is in finding someone who would share your interests on this level. Though that may be more difficult for you than me.

[ NODDING A LITTLE TOO VIGOROUSLY. Seriously, Cyd, you're going to strain your neck doing that. ]

Good, good! L- like I said, nothing with it, but I've seen that stuff go... really wrong.

[ please don't ask ]

You really think it's that necessary? It'd be nice, but I don't need to person I date to be exactly into the same things I'm into. As long as he doesn't actively make fun of nerds or anything (hypothetically), I think some difference of opinion can be good.

Edited 2013-06-15 04:07 (UTC)

Oh, not at all! I certainly don't think it's proper or even likely for both to be of exactly the same mind, and we should have interests that are solely ours, probably. And an awareness of each other's faults is certainly important, along with the trust to accept the opposing view of the other when it's presented.

What I was primarily referring to is the ability to share that one activity, specifically the books.

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