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[glowsferatu]

It Is My Regrettable Duty To Inform You That The Count Of Those Present On This Plane No Longer Includes The Following
Jake English
Feferi Peixes
Roxy Lalonde
Rose Lalonde
And Karkat Vantas

There Are Others Missing Also But I Havent Identified Them
Just That The Number Of Familiar Threads Are Fewer In Number
It Seems As Though Some Sort Of Mass Exodus Was Accomplished While We Slept Last Night
And We Are The Ones Left Behind In Its Aftermath

I Wonder If We Havent Offended Her In Some Way

Comments

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[lastnerv]

[Okay he's being trying to avoid talking to her since shadowgate but this deserves comment.]

god damnit

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[glowsferatu]

[ too many people she works with avoiding her these days. ]

Thats Essentially My Feelings On The Matter
But Uh
Hey

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[lastnerv]

yeah

hi

guess i couldn't keep it up forever

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[glowsferatu]

It Wouldnt Do For You To
You Need Your Friends Shinji
We All Do
And I Dont Want To Think That Ive Ever Stopped Being That

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[lastnerv]

[That hurts. Then again, everything about this does.]

it's not safe

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[glowsferatu]

And What Is

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[lastnerv]

i don't know!!

i can't control everything but i can at least keep my friends away from me

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[glowsferatu]

That Doesnt Answer The Question Of Whether You Should
If Your Presence Is Dangerous
Dont You Think Your Isolation Will Only Be More So
Ive Seen Where That Leads Shinji You Arent Talking To Someone Who Is A Stranger To The Subject

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[lastnerv]

no

if i'm alone i won't be hurt and neither will anyone else

i'll live

i have before

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[glowsferatu]

Im Reasonably Certain That None Of Those Things Are True
Abandonment Brings Pain So You Cant Pretend No One Will Be Hurt
As Does Loneliness

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[lastnerv]

it doesn't matter okay

i can't keep doing this anymore

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[glowsferatu]

And Whats This That You Cant Continue
Having Friends
Maintaining A Life
Or Is It The Hiding You Put Forth To Uphold Those

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[lastnerv]

putting my friends in danger

it's happened before it'll happen again and again

there's something wrong with me

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[glowsferatu]

Shinji
Remember Who Youre Speaking With
Do You Really Think I Dont Understand Having Something Wrong With Oneself
Being Inherently Broken
Do You Think I Fear The Danger To Myself I May Suffer From Our Acquaintance
Im Your Friend
I Care About You
Because Of That I Wont Let You Or Myself Go Anywhere

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[lastnerv]

maybe you shouldn't

have you thought about that?

maybe if you let me go and cut myself off you'll be happier too

you won't have to worry about me hurting you again at least

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[glowsferatu]

I Wouldnt Be Any Happier At All
Ive Been Trying To Say From The Start That Id Be Quite The Opposite
Im Not Worried About Being Hurt
What I Am Worried About Is You

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[lastnerv]

then stop being so fucking caring!!

i WANTED to kill you

that THING wanted to

and all you can say is you're worried about me?!

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[glowsferatu]

Do You Think Its Something I Shouldnt Be Worried About
Knowing My Friend Keeps Himself As Tightly Locked As I Do Myself
In Secret
Without Anyone Knowing Or Helping
Im Not One To Be Frightened Away When I Know Theres A Need

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[lastnerv]

it'd be better for us both if you were

i don't want to kill anyone else kanaya

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[glowsferatu]

Do You Want To Know How To Do That
I Have An Answer And Its Very Simple
Just Dont Kill Anyone
And If Thats Such A Difficult Rule To Follow Then You Need To Tell Someone You Trust
Tell Me
Because There Will Be Times When The Only Way You Can Keep From Falling Is To Have Someone There To Catch You

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[lastnerv]

it's not a matter of if i want to

people close to me just end up that way

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[glowsferatu]

You Arent The Only One To Have Lost Thsoe You Care For To The Grasp Of Death
Neither Are You Alone In Blaming Yourself For It
Its Okay If I Have To Suffer
Im Not Afraid Of It

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[lastnerv]

[That hits him hard]

someone once told me that there are people who don't deserve to be happy

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[glowsferatu]

Just Because You Cant Be Happy Doesnt Mean You Should Be Left To Your Misery
There Are Magnitudes
Some Amount Of Misery Can Still Be Somewhat Healthy
Or At Least Perfectly Normal