capeandcowl | 13 lit cigarettes [voice]

You already have proof that you'll meet him again.

What proof?

You haven't forgotten, have you? Eventually we'll all go back to that place. He came from a point after both of us, and he didn't say that either of us had vanished.

The birthmark you carry should be proof enough.

I'm not going back there.

There's no saying we aren't all from three different, almost-the-same worlds.

You're not?

... What makes you any more special, than the others who have been sent home? Why... why should you get to stay, just because you want to? You're the one who joined with the Dark Signers, you're the one who chose revenge, and hurting others just to get back at someone else. You're the one who hurt innocent people for a stupid grudge! Why should you get to stay here, when you've done nothing good in the world you left behind?!

What makes you more important to keep than any of the other people who built lives, and families here? People who... who never knew their parents before they came here, or who met siblings that never existed where they came from? Who made new best friends with people they'd never have been able to meet before coming here? What about the people who fell in love, or who would start families? What about everyone else, who came from broken worlds and who never had friends before they came here? What makes you think you deserve to stay, when none of them could?! What makes you better than them?

There were good people in this place... heroes, and friends, and family. People that everyone looked up to. That everyone cared about. That everyone missed and that people cried for, people who weren't from their own world and who they couldn't ever see again, people who deserved second chances at happiness but couldn't hold on to them because not one of them had a choice. What makes you think that you deserve better?!

It doesn't matter what you want, or what any of us want! You don't get to choose if you stay or go! But I guess you wouldn't know anything about that, would you?! You... you just sacrifice the hopes and dreams of everyone else just so you can have a stupid second chance that you never deserved!

SHUT UP.

SHUT UP!

YOU KNOW WHAT? Half of what you just said applies to me too! I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO GO BACK TO. If anything, all I have to look forward too is death. The MOMENT I apologized to Yuusei I GAVE UP EVERYTHING BACK HOME. You think I can just keep going if I get sent back? MY GOD WILL KILL ME THE MOMENT HE SEES WHAT I'VE DONE.

Don't talk about loss like you know! DON'T. YOU. DON'T. KNOW. WHAT I HAVE LOST. You weren't alive for Zero Reverse. YOU weren't born in Satellite. I TRIED. I wanted to help my friends, I wanted to make things better for them. I. DON'T. KNOW. WHY EVERYTHING WENT WRONG. IF YOU THINK I WANTED THAT...IF YOU THINK BEING A DARK SIGNER WAS MY FIRST CHOICE...

I don't have anything to go back to either, Ruka. I don't have a family. I. don't. have. FRIENDS. All I have is my revenge THAT I DON'T EVEN WANT anymore and DEATH. I'm a Dark Signer because I lost everything and had nothing left to lose. My life was WORTHLESS. I DIDN'T CARE.

Maybe I can't decide either way. I KNOW I DON'T HAVE A CHOICE. EVERY. DAY. I wonder whether I'm next! AND I'M GOING TO FIGHT TOOTH AND NAIL TO STAY. So that offends you? TOO BAD.

I MIGHT HAVE JUST LOST THE ONE PERSON I--

I never said I deserved it. What I said is I'm not going back. Either I stay here, or I die as soon as I get there. Same. Damn. Thing.

If Yuusei's gone, I won't see him again unless he comes back.

Everyone only gets one life. Everyone gets one death. You were able to change your destiny once, by living a second time. If you hadn't wanted the burden of it, you should have accepted death.

[No further response.]

THERE WAS NO BURDEN. THERE WAS NOTHING. WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK BEING A DARK SIGNER MEANS? IT MEANS DEATH. THERE IS NO COMING BACK.

I don't know why I even try with you. You're too YOUNG to understand BLACK and WHITE don't EXIST. Or you're simply to BLIND to see it.

13 lit cigarettes [voice]

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Ruka: /snaps

\o/

/stubborn [much more in control of her tone this time]

/also stubborn /responds anyway ^^;