The beginning of the end

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I have been told about second chances before, however, I am not certain I believe in them. As long as memory is retained, then there is no ‘second’ chance - you are merely being given the opportunity to possibly correct the mistakes you made the first time. If only one party remembers, those memories will still affect the outcome of the situation, the actions and reactions of those involved.

If no one remembers anything, then it is not a second chance - it is still the first.

I wonder why the porter machine only says ‘welcome’ instead of ‘welcome back’. She did not seem interested in answering when I asked her.

[ voice; | unhackable to Sarah Connor Reese ]

Hello again, Sarah.

[ A pause, but then Cameron decides to just leave it at that and see what the woman says. ]

[ voice; | unhackable to John Connor Baum ]

I do not require a ride, unless the location in which you are staying has moved.

Hello.

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I'll be in the kitchen. The tamales are almost finished and the coffee's just finished brewing.

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Coffee sounds good.

I am sorry if my leaving caused disruptions.

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I'll leave a cup out for you. [the laugh is a rough bark] You're back and he'll be...happier, that's all that matters. [there's the sound of the coffee pot hitting the rim of her cup]

That's all that ever fucking mattered. I don't think he really believes it when I say that.

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[ There's a pause. ]

It has not always been what matters. That is why he doesn't believe it.

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I know. I've seen that.

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[ Confused: ] You have seen that?

Like Kyle used to?

[terminatefate]

Did he? [there's the slightest catch in her voice]

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He was precognitive.

John has his notes.

[terminatefate]

I'll have to look through them. I've.

[a very long pause]

Been dreaming, seeing things. Things from your timeline. Enrique. [and there, the flicking of her lighter] Fuck if I know why. Gotta be a goddamn reason.

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I'll see that he gives them to you. [ She has an idea as to why he hasn't so far, but she won't mention it. ]

Enrique... [ There's a pause and then text. Data. The recorded phone message from Enrique to Agent Ellison. ]

He was a snitch. John's Sarah didn't believe it.

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[another long silence, then a soft affirmative sound]

I saw him. Enrique was fucking lying. You were right to kill him. As much as I liked that man, he changed, and he fucked us over. He'd fuck anyone over to save his skin. I understand her reaction, but she was fucking stupid if she thought it was telling the truth. She didn't see with her eyes, she didn't see him tense, or the way he waved his hands, or the way he moved. She saw what she wanted to see.

And it would have killed them both if you hadn't been there.

I would have shot him after a moment of thinking it over. Sometimes you have to do that shit. Sometimes it's the only way you survive.

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I am not sure what to make of an ability to view events that cross timelines. [ But she won't knock it, that's for sure. ]

You are very different from her. It will take adjustment on John's part, and my own.

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...I don't know what to make of it, either. All I know right now, is that my head fucking hurts like I've been beating my head against a wall all day.

[there's a snort]

Apparently, the difference is stark and fucked up.

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Ah. [ That explains the stress in Sarah's voice then, different than what Cameron had come to think of as usual. ]

When John spoke to me of his mother, prior to taking the TDE back, he spoke of her in terms of a warrior. Not as a parent or caretaker.

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She forgot how. She forgot how to fight and raise a son. She fucking forgot John came first. Always John. Not the war, not the fucking mission, not blowing up Skynet. Only John matters. Everything else is secondary.

[her voice, which had been rising, falters]

A warrior. She let the fight consume her, strip her, and destroy her. It won't happen to me. He's my son, Cameron. Fuck timelines, fuck them to hell. He's my son even if she fucked him up. How does a mother even be-- [and the signal snaps]

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[ Well that fucking hurt.

Cameron sighs and will pick up this conversation in person. ]