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[iknowyourfear.livejournal.com]

[ A long silence, then in a voice that's tight with control, but unusually unsteady: ]

He's following me.

[ Then an exhale. ]

I think it's him. The guy that I ki-- [ He stops. There's a long pause, then: ]

Abby, where are you?

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[tothecloud.livejournal.com]

[ On a shaky exhale: ]

If it wasn't my fault, it wasn't yours either.

Armory was the one who shot him. Not you.

[iknowyourfear.livejournal.com]

Armory only shot him because I turned into her worst fear and she panicked.

[tothecloud.livejournal.com]

Because they told you to. Terry-- it doesn't even matter anymore. He's dead, and... I-It won't change, even if we try to figure out whose fault it was.

[ A pause. ]

I want to come see him.

[iknowyourfear.livejournal.com]

No.

[tothecloud.livejournal.com]

W-What do you mean, no?

[iknowyourfear.livejournal.com]

I mean exactly what I said, Abby. I'm not gonna let you see him. I don't have to be a shrink to know that's the last thing you need.

[tothecloud.livejournal.com]

Right, because that day at training, you read my mind and turned into his dead body?

[iknowyourfear.livejournal.com]

[ He misses a full beat. ]

Stop it.

[tothecloud.livejournal.com]

[ She hesitates too. But she doesn't apologize. Instead, more quietly: ]

You have to let me see him.

[iknowyourfear.livejournal.com]

Why?

[tothecloud.livejournal.com]

Because. Terry, please. I just-- I want to tell him.

How... [ Her voice breaks a little. ] How sorry I am.

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[iknowyourfear.livejournal.com]

Abby. You've moved on from that. Right? You're different now.

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[tothecloud.livejournal.com]

I wish-- I wish I'd been stronger back then. If I hadn't been so scared, if I had just... Moved my feet? Michael wouldn't be dead.

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[iknowyourfear.livejournal.com]

Look, I could say the same thing. If I hadn't transformed -- if I hadn't been born, a lot of people wouldn't have been hurt. But saying that doesn't change the past.