Eighth Inquiry [voice] BACKDATED TO 3AM

[nottheanswers]

You now, there are some questions that you'll be unlikely to ever get an answer to you can share. Not entirely impossible, as this place has proven, but the usefulness of the information, how it may apply to anyone else, is always suspect.

I've got one in particular in mind, but the answers will probably be different between here and home, and there's good odds they'll vary from person-to-person.

But I'm using a lot of words to make a very simple inquiry. [sorry everyone, he probably hasn't slept in a few days] What do you think happens when you die? Or, at the very least, between when you die here and when she decides to bring you back?

I have my own thoughts, of course, but my answers aren't important right now. Just the question.

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[nottheanswers]

Rough trade-off. Like the price of having the burden taken away is having it dropped right back again without warning.

[radiantly]

[She's silent for a moment as she collects herself again.]

You know, I haven't even talked to my husband about it. He was so happy to see me...

[nottheanswers]

It can be hard for the people who care about us to understand how important these things can be to share if they haven't been through anything like it.

[radiantly]

I wanted to tell him, but he was just so glad I was back. [a pause] I should try to tell him again.

[nottheanswers]

That was about two months ago, wasn't it? Might be enough time to revisit it with him, especially since it's clearly still weighing on you.

[radiantly]

Just about, yeah. It's weird, it's hard to talk about it. It's something I'm not sure I can fully explain to Pietro without upsetting him. I don't mean making him angry, I know he won't be angry with me. But I don't want to dig up all that rage he felt when it happened. [sigh] Why do matters of life and death have to be so touchy and complicated, you know?

[nottheanswers]

I guess back home we at least had the certainty that there was some finality to it. ...With some exemptions, I guess. With the way things work here, it leaves a lot more questions, since there's a good but not definite chance that we'll return. And if we do, will we be the same? Will we remember what we'd already learned here? Will we feel the same way about everything?

That said, I wouldn't think it's entirely fair if his feelings about your experience kept you quiet about it. They're worth taking into account for how you might approach this, but there's still yours on the table, too.