( introduction, text ) 18th of april, 2011.

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

It's taken me a week, but I believe I have this little machine nearly figured out. The letters are familiar enough, but this is no printing press I've ever seen. Not in my wildest dreams could I imagine mankind would come so far - reading each other's words, almost at the speed of thought!

My name is Daniel, and that is the sum of what I know. Not too long ago, I was a dead man, hunted by something beyond even the basest comprehension. Even now, I catch myself looking over my shoulder at the slightest sound. Sleep is an impossibility, and there is a weariness in my bones I fear may never mend itself.

I cannot possibly repay the debt I owe for this chance I've been given to live yet again, and make a life anew in this wondrous city. Not a day passes that I am not left in awe, and every building here is a testament to the sheer ability of man to create. It reduces me to a Neanderthal in this civilized world. It is a unique, and frightening prospect: with no memory, not a speck of recognition in this world, I am forced into a most literal rebirth.

Yet, the thing which vexes me most is the title hero. I've been told that I can ignore my duty here with no repercussions, and yet, how can I not have been brought from my inevitable grave for some higher purpose than simply to exist once again? Why am I here? Am I meant to recreate myself as a better man?

Or am I seeing meaning where there is none?

[TL;DR FOR THE AUDIENCE AT HOME: DANIEL TALKS ABOUT HIS LIFE AND NO1CURR.]

Comments

voice;

[goryteller]

Oh! [Pleasant surprise! Not trauma!] You're still here.

voice everafter

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

[oh god voice where is that button. EXCUSE HIM THIS TAKES A FEW INGAME MINUTES.]

Amazing, as though I'm hearing him right there beside me - You're the fellow I met earlier, aren't you? I'd like to offer a belated thanks for helping me.

There's nowhere else for me to go at the moment, I'm afraid, as I have no home to speak of.

[goryteller]

Yes, right. That's me. [He debates, briefly, telling him that the Porter will one day send him home, but--] You really sound like you're settling in!

Voice; SO WHIMSICAL SOUNDING

[caprihorn]

Bro, you all know what it motherfuckin' sounds like you need? Some motherfuckin' wicked elixir.

voice forever, this icon just for you nat

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

I'm... sorry? I'm not entirely sure what you're referring to.

I feel so honored. AND I SERIOUSLY LOVE THIS ICON, you don't even know.

[caprihorn]

Haha, I'm all saying you need to relax motherfucker. You need to get a wicked drink and just motherfuckin' kick back and let everything go on doing it's own wicked shit instead of worrying yourself all with it.

Motherfuckin' understand what I'm saying, bro?

comment not here;

[goryteller]

[What.]

Comment also not here;

[caprihorn]

[This isn't even close to how weird this is going to get Katurian, just you wait.]

voice

[supermanliness.livejournal.com]

I don't think you're going to find anyone that can give you a concrete answer. That's all something a good deal of us are wondering about as well.

Although, I could argue that every day, each of us is challenged to recreate ourselves as better than the day before. Why should a place like this be any different?

permavoice in return! GOSH DANIEL IT'S ALL ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

Concrete answers are in life, I'm learning quickly. I will admit that this was much for my own benefit - to put my thoughts on paper, as it were.

Still, philosophy is more than welcome. I would normally agree, I expect. But how could a man possibly recreate himself with nothing there to reshape? How could I?

WELL HE'S PROBABLY TALKING TO THE RIGHT GUY FOR THAT

[supermanliness.livejournal.com]

Maybe "create" would be a better word here than "recreate", then.

[bestkindofcrazy.livejournal.com]

When you figure it out, think you could let me know?

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

If by some miracle I do crack the secret, I expect the network will be the first to know, after my diary. As of now, though, I'll have to owe you.

[bestkindofcrazy.livejournal.com]

Well, I'll be working on it from my comfy free apartment buying food with my free money. Probably a good plan to do the same.

I'm Harry Dresden, by the way. Nice to meetcha.

[voice]

[donttasemebro]

[awww 1CURR :( You have pinged him hard, strange new person. Have a very kind and sympathetic voice.]

You... lost your memory?

permavoice in return!

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

[aw Bruno ;_; HE RESPONDS WELL TO KINDNESS]

Yes, I did. By my own choice, though why, I couldn't tell you. [this is a lie though he totally knows some stuff.]

[donttasemebro]

[THAT IS GOOD BECAUSE BEING NICE IS P. MUCH HIS SUPERPOWER]

You erased it on purpose? [Definitely not said in an accusing way, just sort of surprised. But after a second he just lets out a thoughtful and apologetic "Hnn." After all, it's not like he hasn't considered that theory about himself sometimes.]

I'm sorry. I... know what that's like. Losing your memory, I mean.

Voice;

[in-likeflynn.livejournal.com]

I think that is all your own decision, yes?

Hello, Daniel. I am Kurt Wagner.

permavoice in return!

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

It's a pleasure to meet you, Kurt.

And yes, it is, but a difficult one to make. It's starting the long journey ahead that's the hardest.

voice

[rethinkstrategy.livejournal.com]

These are complicated machines, aren't they? Like a radio and a typewriter all in one.

permavoice in return!

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

Both of which you... may have to explain to me. [oh god how embarrassing.] Even with a week of learning, I'm more used to the innovations of 1839.

voice;

[survivingactual.livejournal.com]

From what I've seen, that choice is up to you.

permavoice in return!

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

And that, I think, is what I was afraid of. Having to decide what to do. [wryyyy.]

Voice

[iceandblood.livejournal.com]

The decision to better yourself lies with you, not with the masses. [A pause, and with a little less bite.] You seem to be doing better now.

[silenthillyways.livejournal.com]

Even so, there's no harm in seeking a word of advice.

Yes, I am, thank you. I'd attribute it to rest, but I think it's more the safety than anything else.