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[culver]

[the video flicks on to show nill outside the church. the comm is facing the street, which anyone who has been there should recognize. there isn't much going on, except a bright red convertible mustang sitting near the curb. the boy in the driver's seat waves in nill's direction before driving off, complete with squealing tires. she kind of waves back, but as soon as he's gone, nill turns the camera to her face, which is both troubled and confused. she can't be bothered with proper punctuation at the moment.]

he called me his girlfriend and i know i am a girl and his friend
but i think girlfriend means something different
and he said we went on a date
but we just ate lunch in a restaurant and i do that with a lot of people
am i the girlfriend of everybody then??
i do not understand

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[culver]

i do not know i have only ever held the hand of heine before but i have not ever kissed him

[paints_lanterns]

Well, you don't have to do any of it.

You only have to if you want to. I mean...if you aren't sure then you shouldn't, right?

[culver]

okay
yes you are right

[paints_lanterns]

...oh good.

[She looks relieved.]

So what's he like? Tell me about him?

[culver]

he is nice
he plays sports at school and has a lot of friends

[paints_lanterns]

Oh, okay.

...What else? Are his friends your friends?

[culver]

kind of
they talked to me when i am around him
but not always when i am not

[paints_lanterns]

Oh.

...Why not?

[culver]

i do not know

[paints_lanterns]

Does he say anything about it?

[culver]

no

[paints_lanterns]

Oh...

I don't know. It's all rather confusing, isn't it? I guess you don't have to have the same friends...I've never really had a lot of friends, or a boyfriend, so it's all strange to me.

[culver]

it is strange to me too
i wish i knew what to do

[paints_lanterns]

Do you like him? I mean...'like' him. That way.

[culver]

what way?

[paints_lanterns]

Like...like in a boyfriend girlfriend way.

[culver]

i do not know

[paints_lanterns]

...that's important though right?

[culver]

yes