DID I MAKE A MISTAKE - WHEN I TURNED IT ON - WAS MY DANCE PATTERN RIGHT, OR WAS MY DANCE PATTERN WRO

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

this good mood hasn't stopped and it is so long going it almost threatens to make me paranoid

everything is going right for me for once, and i clearly did not do anything to deserve it

like some kind of karma from the mirror universe, where the heavens above reward me for drawing inappropriate pictures of ulysses and oedipus

but i'm going to drink deep in it, dive to the absolute bottom, and shudder in its warm orange hedonistic oceanic ripples

something rattles in my bones, and it's only going to get better

everything is clicking finally

kill your comfort, kill your familiarity

fuck and get fucked by the new

an orgasm provided by the strange and original

hahahaha

the strange and the ugly and the beautiful and the graceful

i love 'em all

Comments

[meowminx]

Good date?

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

it's more an atmosphere

and a sense of accomplishment

and a sense of really having my own structure

it's not a sense of belonging because that's for when you want to belong to what's already there

it's more that after a year or so, i'm finally navigating my own head and the situation presented to me with the proper tools and perspective

i've carved my own personal bubble of life into this city that fits, all measured out to ethreal perfection

not pinning myself down anymore

and not unleashing too far after forcing my inner thoughts to get all pent up in the beat of my lungs

[meowminx]

Home, then.

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

a home, i suppose

it is not the home i supposed to have

but it feels much less like a compromise now

[meowminx]

No, that makes sense.

[Voice]

[itwontbuzz.livejournal.com]

My, you truly know how to describe a good mood!

I'm glad things are going so divinely for you. No mid-air collision brought this on ...?

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

nope

not drugs, either

stone cold sober contentment

i'd say ecstasy, but that denotes some kind of hyperactivity to it

this is a calmer feeling

an ocean of warm delight, kicking up at the heels and eventually to the hips in small waves

[itwontbuzz.livejournal.com]

Content? Does that mean the chaos is temporarily gone?

You really must show me your poetry, sometime. Any of your writings would be a delight to read.

1/2

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

no, the chaos is still there

remember what i said last time?

chaos isn't bad, it's just chaos

the unpredictability still floats around my skin, and it is a joy to behold

as for my poetry

hold on, lemme go dig up one of my oldies

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

here we go, found one of 'em

the darkest skin, the darkest skin
baked in the sun, we do the warmest sin
i taste the earth, i see the women again
who have the darkest skin, the darkest skin

five million miles, the universe apart
we eat the heat from the heaviest star
and even if your skin is dead and marred
i feel you out, like galactic radar

in my sweatiest dreams, i see the end
total white hot light that's express-sent
still, all i wanna do is that warmest sin
while pressed against those with the darkest skin

[itwontbuzz.livejournal.com]

That is very beautiful, Tank. And would not be allowed at public readings in most places on Betrassus, but still, very beautiful!

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

wait

are you shitting me

what exactly would keep this from being read

[take-theride.livejournal.com]

Thats it...


...I want some of that pot.

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

THAT'S THE REALLY WEIRD PART

i'm not DOING anything

I AM, FOR ALL INTENTS AND PURPOSES, DOING THAT WHICH EVERY 70S PAMPHLET AND AFTER SCHOOL SPECIAL ADVOCATED

GETTING HIGH ON LIFE

this is not to suggest that i am going to give up my drugs, though, because that will never, ever, ever happen

in fact i'll probably smoke a fat one and listen to my hendrix vinyls in like 30

[take-theride.livejournal.com]

I've never been able to accept that term. High on life... despite what many former drug abusers tend to believe.

Vinyls. Jesus fuck, do you know what they're listening to music on these days? What's the point? ...just when I think I've learned everything about this entire futuristic and fucking insane city.

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

a little machine that fits everything the beatles ever did, with enough room to also cram in the entirety of every song that ever came out in the 60s ever

it is horrifying and amazing

as for the point of vinyls

i just have a degree of sentimentality with them

[take-theride.livejournal.com]

Shit.

Well with out without vinyls. I'll probably be lit up in the next 20 minutes or so.

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

that is a solid plan

'getting lit up in 20 minutes' - an appropriate reaction to any situation?

wedding announcement?

get lit

chinese taking too long to get to the door?

get lit

apocalypse/second coming of jesus?

get lit

[take-theride.livejournal.com]

Exactly.

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

christ, it's almost a philosophy

CAN you make a philosophy that consists of a single command, which is get lit?

hm

only problem is that it'd attract nothing but those fat fuckos who shop at spencer's gifts for stupid shit like t-shirts with smug slogans

college frat date rapers and the like

[take-theride.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure I understand.

But perhaps it should be tested.

If all else fails, get lit.

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

simultaneously

if all is going well

get lit

[take-theride.livejournal.com]

We'll just have to make it more vague, then.

If all is, get lit

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

perfection

[take-theride.livejournal.com]

Teach this lesson to your future children.

[grenadeball.livejournal.com]

i intend to avoid getting pregnant like no one's business

but i will pass it onto the next generation somehow

a massive monument, erected on mars

[take-theride.livejournal.com]

Whatever works.

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