Too much too much too much | Voice

[caprihorn]

[Starting frantic, caught somewhere between despairing and enraged this comes out of Gamzee's mouth faster than a hummingbird's heartbeat:]

-need him right now. _{Can't fuckin' wait on this shit,} but motherfuckin' can't find himself anywhere. _{Ain't nowhere, nowhere round here.}

And the shit in my pan ain't got to stopping. _{Just keeps repeating like it up and did before.} Don't want hear nothing about this war no more. _{And this} motherfuckin' brother needs to get at out of here. _{Motherfuckin' spreading his blasphemy as hard as he all can.} Needs to up and die.

_{Shit, shit,} motherfuckin' shit this needs to get out. _{Last time things got on repeating like this up and murdered a lot of peopel} and can't be doing that. _{Can't let Karkat down with that shit.}

[The tiniest bit of a pause before he adds in a higher voice that sounds like its about to scratch out walls:]

The motherfuck does it mean by _{We have to bring war to the City.} But we have to make the imPorts provoke a war, first?

_{Why the motherfuck would that all matter when we've up and done that shit before?} Why's it all repeating up in my pan?!

_{Fuck this nosie,} fuck all of it, _{even the shit that comes before these two fuckin' things.}

Get it the motherfuck out, _out out _out out!

[There's a thump and it sounds like someone's still yelling, but they're not exactly standing for it.]

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[caprihorn]

[HE DOESN'T WANT TO BE HERE HE WANTS THE TRAIN OUT OF HERE RIGHT NOW, MITCH.]

_{Don't remember most of it, wasn't up in there long,} just some shit like a bus or something.

[This is approximately three seconds of him grappling with his rage and brain trying to get things settled for just a bit, two seconds of silence, and then all of that is followed by a two second hiss.[

_{Can't find} motherfuckin' shit. _{It never stops} and that annoying motherfucker brings up his own shit and makes it harder.

_{Motherfucker.} Gonna snap his neck.

[viced]

A bus? [ REOCCURRING THEME RIGHT HERE ]

Do you have anything to distract you? [ A beat ] Maybe meditation? Or some painkillers?

[caprihorn]

_{Don't even joke about putting poison up in my veins, motherfucker.} Ain't funny.

[It sounds like he's about to say more, but he's hissing again as he's taken further into this, he hasn't thumped onto the floor again at least.]

_{Why won't he shut up this motherfucker's worse than them motherfuckers at the start.}

[viced]

Who the fuck is worse? Who said the other shit? About the war?

[caprihorn]

There's more shit than the war up at in my pan. _{And I ain't repeating it.}

Fuck this motherfucker, ain't giving him an audience.

[viced]

[ A slightly frustrated tone, and then. ]

Look, you have to ignore everything that's coming in. Think about one thing, and just keep repeating it.

[caprihorn]

_{Don't work like that} this shit keeps going in what order it wants and it don't stop. _{Just fuckin' keeps going.}

[viced]

You sure about that? You need to actively concentrate on something else, and I mean for a long fucking time. It wouldn't be easy. There's a method to shutting shit out.

[caprihorn]

Been dealing with this shit for fucking hours _{and it's} very, _very, very, _very, very, _fuckin' loud.

_{And my thoughts ain't good when I want} to get my harshwhimsy on.

[viced]

Okay, the fuck is your harshwhimsy?

[caprihorn]

_{Bad shit I don't want to get to doing.} Upsets Karkat real bad.

[viced]

Alright, alright, I got that. So wouldn't this be a good thing? A complete distraction?

[caprihorn]

[Thinking about it.]

_{Maybe you've got to having a good point there.}

[viced]

See? There's an advantage.

[caprihorn]

Don't all motherfuckin' know to get to concentrating on though.

[viced]

It helps if you just kind of let it happen. Don't think on anything in particular, but just let it happen.

[caprihorn]

_{How's that supposed to fuckin' happen when there's voices screaming in my pan?}

[viced]

You don't focus. The voices screaming are only one part, right?

[caprihorn]

Guess they ain't everything, yeah. _{Just one big part that's hard to ignore.}

Other shit's big too though and it's hard to not get angrier about it.

[viced]

Is it really worth getting fucking angry about?

[caprihorn]

[Stressed more than angry]

_{My bro might be dying,} so yeah it all fucking is.

[viced]

Oh.

[ A pause ]

So, concentrate on what's not pissing you off.

[caprihorn]

_{Breathing's the only fucking thing doing that and even that shit's getting annoying.}

[But after taking in another breath.]

I'll all try though.