Katurian Katurian (
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capeandcowl2011-12-23 11:11 pm
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twenty-three. voice.
[Katurian sounds tired and frail. His voice carries its usual tremor.]
As a human being-- like all human beings, I make a tremendous amount of mistakes. A tremendous amount. I'm not a role model. That isn't-- That isn't something I could say.
[Vocalizing those words nearly kicks his breath away. Pause. Then, feverishly:]
I wanted to apologize for the state I found myself in this last week, a state in which-- in which many of you saw me, and I wanted to let everyone know that it was my fault. I thank you for your concern, I really do, but the most important thing for any of you to know is that it was my fault. And I don't want pity, that's never something I want, even if it seems like a very easy thing to give, even if it seems like I deserve it, because I don't deserve pity and I don't want it either. That doesn't mean I deserve to be treated like shit, g-granted, I don't want to see anyone using that as a fucking excuse, but I-- I'm--
[He catches himself. Breathes.]
But I'm all right.
[Click.]
As a human being-- like all human beings, I make a tremendous amount of mistakes. A tremendous amount. I'm not a role model. That isn't-- That isn't something I could say.
[Vocalizing those words nearly kicks his breath away. Pause. Then, feverishly:]
I wanted to apologize for the state I found myself in this last week, a state in which-- in which many of you saw me, and I wanted to let everyone know that it was my fault. I thank you for your concern, I really do, but the most important thing for any of you to know is that it was my fault. And I don't want pity, that's never something I want, even if it seems like a very easy thing to give, even if it seems like I deserve it, because I don't deserve pity and I don't want it either. That doesn't mean I deserve to be treated like shit, g-granted, I don't want to see anyone using that as a fucking excuse, but I-- I'm--
[He catches himself. Breathes.]
But I'm all right.
[Click.]
encrypted;
Glad he was effective. He did ask to be put to use, if the need arose.
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It's imperative to know what's available. Import or no. One man can't specialize in everything.
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Or perhaps you wouldn't. After all, not everyone has earned the right to privacy.
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But I don't advocate it. You asked, I merely answered.
Projecting my thoughts unwittingly is more than enough.
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Slowly.
I imagine attempting not to think would be just as difficult for you.
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I could, perhaps, help you in such a regard?
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I could see the potential.
[And another.]
Why the generosity?
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I see. I'll admit your offer has its advantages.
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You could work without the trouble of having people know your mind. Having criminals see what you see.
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...But the chance to see into how Edward constructed his puzzles was a little too much to pass up.]
No need to sell it to me further. I accept.
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The fourth it is.
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I get enough lectures on my health from other corners, Edward.
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