capeandcowl | 022 ♍ video ♍ yes this is during school hours

[ the scene opens on the desk in kanaya's room, with her sitting behind it. on top of it is a book turned upside down, the cover showing a large man caressing the leg of a woman mostly out of the frame. loose ends, by c.m. guarde, and kanaya seems to be already halfway through it. next to it is a water bottle half-full of a thick, red liquid.

the curtains are drawn, and the only light in the room seems to be coming from her. she has her chin propped up in her hand, and her eyes are heavily lidded, not as made-up as usual. she hasn't left her room all day except to buy this book. ]

It's funny, isn't it. The things one will do out of a hope for love. How much one will ignore, and agonize over, and consciously blind herself to. It comes to a point where you have to wonder whether Kristof is even worth the effort, but nonetheless, Nora makes no sign of relenting. She believes because she has to, and maybe if it should end in the worst possible manner, she will find a way through it still, to remain with the one she loves.

There's something beautiful in that. Tragic, perhaps, but still meaningful. And maybe it that which keeps drawing me back to the series. If Kristof could have someone to love him so much, could there be hope for the rest of us?

[ she turns the book back over, raising an eyebrow at the text. ] But it's still only fiction. That may ultimately be an unfair expectation of the world.

[ she slides over her bottle to take a quick sip from it. ]

Is anyone else reading these?

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I'd really like to think so. In times like these, we really do need each other more than anything.

[ but it's always dangerous to hope, and this is a perfect example of why. ]

Perhaps give them a week and then try to speak with them. Sometimes space is a requirement in these situations. Or rather, even more space.

I appreciate the thought. That would have been really prudent advice, except that this has been going on for three months already.

Then perhaps a more abrupt approach. Forget everything I just said about delicacy - three months is bordering on rude.

I don't know. I think you may be right that if this has kept up so long, there must be a reason. But I'm not sure I'm ready to learn just what it is.

[ she's sure it must somehow be her own fault, she must have done something wrong. ]

[oh, Kanaya. ]

At the top of your head, is there anything you remember doing?

Mostly admitting a truth I'd been withholding. I suppose I feared the reaction it might cause, but perhaps that fear might have been unfair.

You're still keeping it to yourself?

I don't think any of this would be happening if they didn't already know. But...I wasn't the one to tell them at that time.

Maybe that is the problem?

Well, we'd spoken about it afterward. I thought everything was going relatively well, considering the topic, until suddenly it wasn't.

I get the feeling that maybe their grudge holding has reached impossible heights.

Considering who they're holding it against, perhaps that's only fair. Just a simple matter of turnabout, really.

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