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Theres A Considerable Gulf Between Obsession And Due Observance

RIGHT NOW THERE IS A CONSIDERABLE GULF BETWEEN YOU AND SANITY.
ALSO BETWEEN YOUR OPINION AND THINGS THAT ARE ACTUALLY TRUE.

One Of Us Is At The Moment Perfectly Calm
I Will Let That Speak To The Matter As Sufficiently As Is Necessary

[ and then this conversation is locked ]

Perhaps You Would Do Me The Favor Of Explaining The Circumstances Which Ultimately Led To This Situation

WHY DON'T YOU EXPLAIN TO ME WHY THE CONCEPT OF THERE BEING MORE THAN ONE SOLUTION TO AN ISSUE IS SO DIFFICULT FOR YOU TO COMPREHEND THESE DAYS.
KILLING HIM SOLVES NOTHING.
HE'LL BE BACK JUST LIKE ME AND HE'LL BE PISSED ABOUT IT ON TOP OF.
DO YOU THINK HE'LL LEAVE THIS ALONE?
LEAVE YOU ALONE?
LEAVE *GAMZEE* ALONE? THOUGH I DOUBT YOU'D GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THAT, WOULD YOU, NOW YOU'VE MANAGED TO GOAD HIM INTO HELPING YOU GET WHAT YOU WANTED.
YOU'VE DONE NOTHING BESIDES EXACERBATE THE PROBLEM.
WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST THINK?
YOU'RE SMARTER THAN THIS. I KNOW YOU ARE.

Goad Him
Because Your Ever Sweet And Undoubtedly Innocent Moirail Clearly Required My Persuasion To Avenge You
You Have To Realize This Would Have Occurred With Or Without My Participation
And If It Achieves Nothing Else Beyond A Very Satisfying Exercise In Catharsis Thank You For Asking By The Way
It Will Have Communicated A Point
Should He Make Any Kind Of Similar Action In The Future
He Will Be Dealt With In Kind
Perhaps You Could At Least Appreciate That This Is Something Your Moirail And I Can Agree On

AND YOU ABSOLUTELY DID EVERYTHING YOU COULD TO DISCOURAGE HIM, DIDN'T YOU.
YOU'RE ABSOLVED OF ALL RESPONSIBILITY AND WRONGDOING IN THIS SITUATION.
YOU'D NEVER LIFT A HAND TO EITHER OF THEM.
MUCH LESS A CHAINSAW.
AND IT'S CERTAINLY NOT LIKE YOU KNOW BETTER, WHICH AGAIN, COULDN'T POSSIBLY BE MORE THAN I CAN SAY FOR EITHER OF THEM.
IN CASE YOU'RE FORGETTING I'M THE ONE WHO WAS MURDERED.
YOU DON'T SEE ME CHARGING AROUND SCREAMING FOR BLOOD.
YOU'RE MAKING THE MISTAKE OF THINKING ERIDAN IS RATIONAL MINDED ENOUGH TO GIVE HALF A TURD ABOUT YOUR POINTS.
HE'S NOT.
HE'S A COMPLETE IDIOT WHO HAPPENS TO BE OVERPOWERED AND MURDEROUSLY INCLINED.
YOU'RE GOING TO END UP PUSHING US ALL INTO ENDLESS BLOODY, POINTLESS CIRCLES OF REVENGE AND I'M NOT ABOUT TO LET THAT HAPPEN.
THIS ISN'T ALTERNIA, KANAYA.
AND ALL OF YOU NEED TO STOP ACTING LIKE IT IS.
THINGS ARE DIFFERENT HERE. YOU'RE NOT FACING RETRIBUTION FROM JUST ERIDAN AMPORA IF YOU KEEP THIS UP.

I Want You To Consider That Suggestion You Just Typed For A Moment
If You Truly Believe It Could Even Be Imaginable That I Would Discourage Gamzee From Such A Route
Assuming That Is Even Possible
As For Eridan
Hes Been Doing This Unpunished For Too Long
I Can Only Tolerate For So Long When His Crimes Are Simply Ignored
Or Even Worse Rewarded
If Human Authorities Wont Demonstrate Consequences For It Well Someone Had To

OH MY *GOD*
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU SOUND LIKE.
THAT ISN'T A PUNISHMENT.
YOU WEREN'T DOING IT TO PUNISH HIM.
YOU WEREN'T DOING IT FOR ME.
YOU WEREN'T DOING IT BECAUSE IT WOULD HELP THE SITUATION.
YOU WERE DOING IT TO MAKE YOURSELF FEEL BETTER.

That Isnt True
If This Were Only To Assuage My Own Feelings Then What Would Have Kept Me From Bringing This To Fruition At Any Moment In The Past Year
How Else Was I To Respond To This Anyway

[ he feels like such shit right now. why is he fighting with kanaya. everything is wrong in the world. ]

OH WELL GEE I DON'T KNOW
MAYBE IN A WAY THAT WOULD ACTUALLY HAVE LASTING CONSEQUENCES?
MAYBE IN A WAY THAT WOULDN'T BRING AN INDETERMINABLE LANDSLIDE OF SHIT DOWN ON ALL OUR HEADS??????
GOD FORBID SOMEONE USE COMMON FUCKING SENSE AROUND HERE.

The Last Time I Left Him Breathing It Gave The Wrong Impression
I Could Perhaps Have Disarmed Him But Gamzee Would Have Finished The Job Anyway
He Serves As A Rather Visible Example Himself Of The Efficiency That Maneuver Has Granted Me In The Past
If Its A Lack Of Permanence That Really Bothers You Then I Intend To Monitor The Aftermath Closely To Determine If A Repetition Will Be Necessary

Edited 2012-05-04 04:22 (UTC)

OH MY GOD PLEASE LET'S NOT TALK ABOUT HIS MORONIC BLACKROM ASPIRATIONS
I'VE ALREADY GOTTEN AN EARFUL OF THAT FROM HIM.
I'D RATHER NOT DELVE INTO THAT PARTICULAR SUBJECT.
I KNOW HE'S A DESPERATE SLICK OF NOOK GUNK, THAT'S PUBLIC KNOWLEDGE.
AND THAT'S NOT THE POINT.
I REITERATE, THIS ISN'T ALTERNIA.
YOU CAN'T JUST GO AROUND KILLING PEOPLE.
GAMZEE CAN'T EVEN SET FOOT IN THE CITY, IS THAT WHAT YOU WANT FOR YOURSELF?
FOR ALL OF US???? THINK OF HOW YOU'RE MAKING US LOOK AS A SPECIES.
AS FAR AS I'VE GATHERED IMPORTS AREN'T EXACTLY LOVED BY THE MASSES TO BEGIN WITH.
THIS PRACTICALLY DOESN'T EVEN CONCERN ERIDAN AT THIS POINT.
THERE'S A BIGGER PICTURE HERE.

Gamzees Distance Is Necessitated For Being A Very Indiscriminate Threat
This Isnt Like That I Have Been Particularly Focused In My Own Selection Of Targets Only Doing So When These Targets Need Be Selected
Uh
Well Usually
When I Am Allowed A Proprietary Command Of My Faculties

OH MY GOD.
IS IT SO MUCH TO ASK OF YOU TO KEEP YOUR FUCKING LIPSTICK CAPPED AND CHAINSAW CLEAN?
PLEASE.
HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO SAY THIS *ISN'T* OUR PLANET BEFORE YOU GET IT???
HUMANS DON'T CARE WHO DESERVES TO DIE AND WHO DOESN'T.
WHERE WAS TEREZI DURING ALL THIS, ANYWAY, WHAT WAS SHE DOING.
I WAS DEAD, WHAT'S HER EXCUSE FOR LETTING THIS HAPPEN.

Theyve Allowed Him Amnesty For His Crimes Committed In Their Domain Thus Far
For This Reason Im Not Terribly Inclined Give Their Methods Much Credence
But Dont Place The Blame On Her For This
I Didnt Consult With Her Prior To Committing Any Of This
She Was Entirely Unaware Of My Plans Until After They Had Been Fulfilled
Considering How Upset She Had Been By Your Death Im Uncertain Whether She Was Aware Of Much At All Really

[ he immediately regrets bringing up terezi. ]

OH YES SHE WAS UTTERLY DEVASTATED.
THAT MUCH WAS CLEAR FROM OUR QUAINT LITTLE EXCHANGE JUST NOW.
A REAL HEARTWARMING REUNION.

[ yeah she just...saw that and might need to run damage control now ]

You Werent Exactly There To Witness It
By Uh The Very Nature Of The Affliction Of Course
But Your More Recent Interactions Havent Been Entirely Easy On Her Either

RIGHT
BECAUSE SHE'S BEEN AN ABSOLUTE SAINT TO ME.
I'M A COLD BLOODED MONSTER AND SHOULD FEEL ASHAMED FOR REACTING IN WHAT I CLEARLY ERRONEOUSLY THOUGHT WAS A SITUATIONALLY APPROPRIATE MANNER.
I APOLOGIZE FOR BEING SO REPULSIVE THAT INTERACTING WITH ME CAUSES HER TO WISH ME DEAD.

Could You On Even One Singular Occasion Consider Her Feelings On The Matter Instead Of Interpreting Her Every Action As Some Designed Slight To Further Complicate Your Existence
That Perhaps Her Responses Are Just That
A Reaction
Specifically To The Approach Youve Taken With Her For Far Too Long Now
I Understand That You Have Experienced A Divergent Amount Of Time With Regards To This
And How Jarring It Must Seem To Expect One Thing Only To Find That Shes At An Entirely Different Point
But Perhaps Your Definition Of Situationally Appropriate When She Is The Audience Has In Fact Been Especially Erroneous
She Obviously Doesnt Genuinely Want You Dead But Shes Been Bedridden With Grief For A Week And Then You Return And Start Acting Like
Well
Karkat Your Manner Is Not Unlike An Utter Tool At The Moment

WHY SHOULD I
WHY SHOULD I WHEN EVERYTHING OUT OF HER MOUTH OR TYPED ON THAT LITTLE COMMUNICATIONS DEVICE LATELY HAS BEEN ONE HUMONGOUS FUCK YOU RIGHT UP THE NOOK, KARKAT VANTAS.
OR DID YOU NOT SEE WHAT SHE HAD TO SAY TO ME AS HER LITTLE "WELCOME BACK" MESSAGE?
WERE YOU TOO BUSY FONDLING THAT GREAT BIG SACK OF BIAS YOU SEEM TO BE HAULING AROUND?
IT WASN'T EVEN HER REJECTING ME IN RED THAT DID THIS, KANAYA.
OR FINDING A NEW MATESPRIT.
I COULD HAVE SUCKED THAT ONE UP.
TAKEN THAT REVELATION ON THE CARTILAGE NUB.
I CAN FUCKING DEAL OK.
IT WAS HOW SHE DECIDED TO TELL ME ABOUT IT.
FUNNY HOW SHE ALWAYS CHOOSES MOMENTS LIKE THESE TO DROP SUCH DECADENT BOMBS ON ME, ISN'T IT.
BUT WHY SHOULD I EXPECT ANY SYMPATHY FROM YOU?
OR ANYONE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER.
I ONLY DIED, YOU KNOW, IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL.
IT WAS ONLY MURDER AT THE HANDS OF A PREVIOUSLY TRUSTED FRIEND.
IT WAS ONLY THE MOST PAINFUL AND HORRIFYING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE TO DATE.
BUT GO AHEAD.
KEEP TELLING ME HOW MUCH OF A PIECE OF WORTHLESS FUCKING SHIT I AM.
REVEAL TO ME THE DEPTHS OF HOW DEEPLY I DESERVED WHAT I GOT.
I'M ALL EARS.

You Arent Listening Youre Simply Ascribing The Most Self-Aggravating Interpretation Heedless Of Whether That Was Communicated Or Not
I Am Nor Pretending She Is Blameless In This Matter But I Will Deal With Her Individually
If I Have Any Bias It Is In That I Do Not Orient The Very World To Revolve Around Karkat Vantas
The Point Im Attempting To Make Is That There Is More Going On Than The Fragments You Are Witness To
And Its The Culmination Of A History Of Such Interactions
Your Own Contribution To Which You Seem To Be Entirely Ignoring
Could You Really Consider Her To Have Rejected You When You Never Allowed Yourself To Be Accepted
You Did Your Share To Sabotage To Any Potential She Might Have Hoped For From That
Or That You Had For That Matter
Its Imperative That You At Least Attempt To Examine That Way You Had Inspired Such Responses
Though That Day Was A Complicated Matter On All Fronts And Kind Of A Horrific And Honest Anomaly I Would Prefer Hadnt Occurred In General
And Congratulations
Youve Been Betrayed And Murdered
This Does Not Make You The Sufferer Of An Especially Unique Experience
Not Even From This Particular Culprit
Which By The Way Youve Still Yet To Answer My Earlier Inquiry On The Circumstances Of Such
And Yes Its Insurmountably Shitty And You Didnt Deserve Even A Sliver Of It
If There Was Some Way I Could Render It Retroactively Void I Would Do So Without Hesitation Even Adopt Your Position If I Could
But At The Same Time
Well
Welcome To The Club
That Would Really Be The Preferred Topic Honestly Since I Doubt Well This Discussion On Terezi Will Prove At All Productive

HAVE YOU CONSIDERED THE POSSIBILITY THAT THE REASON WHY I'VE BEEN DEFTLY AVOIDING THAT PARTICULAR AVENUE OF CONVERSATION
MIGHT BE BECAUSE I'M NOT READY TO TALK ABOUT IT?
THAT MAYBE
JUST MAYBE
IT MIGHT BE A SORE SUBJECT TO BROACH.

I'M SORRY, KANAYA
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON.
WITH YOU
WITH GAMZEE
WITH ERIDAN
WITH TEREZI
I FEEL LIKE THIS IS ALL GETTING AWAY FROM ME AND I DON'T KNOW HOW THE HELL I'M SUPPOSED TO GET A HANDLE ON THIS SITUATION.
SITUATIONS.
ONLY THAT IT'S IMPERATIVE THAT I DO.
SWEET FESTERING FUCKNUGGETS.

These Fucknuggets Only Threaten To Fester Further At This Rate
You Just Returned From A Rather Fatal Intermission That Has A Tendency To Sour Ones Mood Exponentially
It May Be Advisable To Allow Yourself Some Time To First Process That Incident Before Attempting To Exert Yourself Over All Outlying Circumstances

KANAYA I DON'T HAVE TIME TO SIT AROUND ON MY SHAME GLOBES CONTEMPLATING DEATH BE IT MINE OR ANYBODY ELSE'S
WE'RE ALREADY IN OVERPOWERING DISARRAY AND IT IS UP TO ME TO STRAIGHTEN OUT THIS WRITHING LABYRINTHINE SHITFEST.
I'M NOT ABOUT TO SHIRK MY RESPONSIBILITIES SO DON'T EVEN SUGGEST THAT.
FIRST THINGS FIRST
DO THE HUMAN AUTHORITIES KNOW WHAT YOU DID TO ERIDAN.
I MEAN THEY PROBABLY WILL ANYWAY WHEN HE COMES BACK BUT WE'LL DEAL WITH THAT PARTICULAR LITTLE GEM OF A SCENARIO WHEN WE COME TO IT.

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