karkat vantrash (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
crab) wrote in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
capeandcowl2012-05-04 08:43 am
crab) wrote in capeandcowl2012-05-04 08:43 am
Entry tags:
fourth carcino ♋ text
THERE ARE SOME ISSUES I WOULD LIKE TO ADDRESS.
TO EXPLORE, IF YOU WILL.
EVEN DISCUSS, WHILE WE'RE AT IT.
ALLOW ME TO PRESENT MY GRIEVANCES:
WHAT THE FUCK IS *WRONG* WITH YOU GUYS?
WHAT HAS EVEN BEEN *HAPPENING*?
ARE YOU ALL INSANE? YES, YOU ARE. YOU ARE INSANE. I AM SURROUNDED BY PSYCHOPATHS.
I NEED NEW FRIENDS.
YOU KNOW WHAT? THAT'S THE BEST IDEA I'VE EVER HAD.
FRIENDSHIP POSITIONS OPEN. REQUIREMENTS: NOT BEING A MURDER-HAPPY, REVENGE-OBSESSED PYSCHO WHOSE IDEA OF RESOLVING A SITUATION IS IN ACTUALITY MAKING EVERYTHING A SOLID BILLION TIMES WORSE.
TO EXPLORE, IF YOU WILL.
EVEN DISCUSS, WHILE WE'RE AT IT.
ALLOW ME TO PRESENT MY GRIEVANCES:
WHAT THE FUCK IS *WRONG* WITH YOU GUYS?
WHAT HAS EVEN BEEN *HAPPENING*?
ARE YOU ALL INSANE? YES, YOU ARE. YOU ARE INSANE. I AM SURROUNDED BY PSYCHOPATHS.
I NEED NEW FRIENDS.
YOU KNOW WHAT? THAT'S THE BEST IDEA I'VE EVER HAD.
FRIENDSHIP POSITIONS OPEN. REQUIREMENTS: NOT BEING A MURDER-HAPPY, REVENGE-OBSESSED PYSCHO WHOSE IDEA OF RESOLVING A SITUATION IS IN ACTUALITY MAKING EVERYTHING A SOLID BILLION TIMES WORSE.
private.
WHY SHOULD I WHEN EVERYTHING OUT OF HER MOUTH OR TYPED ON THAT LITTLE COMMUNICATIONS DEVICE LATELY HAS BEEN ONE HUMONGOUS FUCK YOU RIGHT UP THE NOOK, KARKAT VANTAS.
OR DID YOU NOT SEE WHAT SHE HAD TO SAY TO ME AS HER LITTLE "WELCOME BACK" MESSAGE?
WERE YOU TOO BUSY FONDLING THAT GREAT BIG SACK OF BIAS YOU SEEM TO BE HAULING AROUND?
IT WASN'T EVEN HER REJECTING ME IN RED THAT DID THIS, KANAYA.
OR FINDING A NEW MATESPRIT.
I COULD HAVE SUCKED THAT ONE UP.
TAKEN THAT REVELATION ON THE CARTILAGE NUB.
I CAN FUCKING DEAL OK.
IT WAS HOW SHE DECIDED TO TELL ME ABOUT IT.
FUNNY HOW SHE ALWAYS CHOOSES MOMENTS LIKE THESE TO DROP SUCH DECADENT BOMBS ON ME, ISN'T IT.
BUT WHY SHOULD I EXPECT ANY SYMPATHY FROM YOU?
OR ANYONE ELSE FOR THAT MATTER.
I ONLY DIED, YOU KNOW, IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL.
IT WAS ONLY MURDER AT THE HANDS OF A PREVIOUSLY TRUSTED FRIEND.
IT WAS ONLY THE MOST PAINFUL AND HORRIFYING EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE TO DATE.
BUT GO AHEAD.
KEEP TELLING ME HOW MUCH OF A PIECE OF WORTHLESS FUCKING SHIT I AM.
REVEAL TO ME THE DEPTHS OF HOW DEEPLY I DESERVED WHAT I GOT.
I'M ALL EARS.
private.
I Am Nor Pretending She Is Blameless In This Matter But I Will Deal With Her Individually
If I Have Any Bias It Is In That I Do Not Orient The Very World To Revolve Around Karkat Vantas
The Point Im Attempting To Make Is That There Is More Going On Than The Fragments You Are Witness To
And Its The Culmination Of A History Of Such Interactions
Your Own Contribution To Which You Seem To Be Entirely Ignoring
Could You Really Consider Her To Have Rejected You When You Never Allowed Yourself To Be Accepted
You Did Your Share To Sabotage To Any Potential She Might Have Hoped For From That
Or That You Had For That Matter
Its Imperative That You At Least Attempt To Examine That Way You Had Inspired Such Responses
Though That Day Was A Complicated Matter On All Fronts And Kind Of A Horrific And Honest Anomaly I Would Prefer Hadnt Occurred In General
And Congratulations
Youve Been Betrayed And Murdered
This Does Not Make You The Sufferer Of An Especially Unique Experience
Not Even From This Particular Culprit
Which By The Way Youve Still Yet To Answer My Earlier Inquiry On The Circumstances Of Such
And Yes Its Insurmountably Shitty And You Didnt Deserve Even A Sliver Of It
If There Was Some Way I Could Render It Retroactively Void I Would Do So Without Hesitation Even Adopt Your Position If I Could
But At The Same Time
Well
Welcome To The Club
That Would Really Be The Preferred Topic Honestly Since I Doubt Well This Discussion On Terezi Will Prove At All Productive
private. 1/2
MIGHT BE BECAUSE I'M NOT READY TO TALK ABOUT IT?
THAT MAYBE
JUST MAYBE
IT MIGHT BE A SORE SUBJECT TO BROACH.
private.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON.
WITH YOU
WITH GAMZEE
WITH ERIDAN
WITH TEREZI
I FEEL LIKE THIS IS ALL GETTING AWAY FROM ME AND I DON'T KNOW HOW THE HELL I'M SUPPOSED TO GET A HANDLE ON THIS SITUATION.
SITUATIONS.
ONLY THAT IT'S IMPERATIVE THAT I DO.
SWEET FESTERING FUCKNUGGETS.
private.
You Just Returned From A Rather Fatal Intermission That Has A Tendency To Sour Ones Mood Exponentially
It May Be Advisable To Allow Yourself Some Time To First Process That Incident Before Attempting To Exert Yourself Over All Outlying Circumstances
private.
WE'RE ALREADY IN OVERPOWERING DISARRAY AND IT IS UP TO ME TO STRAIGHTEN OUT THIS WRITHING LABYRINTHINE SHITFEST.
I'M NOT ABOUT TO SHIRK MY RESPONSIBILITIES SO DON'T EVEN SUGGEST THAT.
FIRST THINGS FIRST
DO THE HUMAN AUTHORITIES KNOW WHAT YOU DID TO ERIDAN.
I MEAN THEY PROBABLY WILL ANYWAY WHEN HE COMES BACK BUT WE'LL DEAL WITH THAT PARTICULAR LITTLE GEM OF A SCENARIO WHEN WE COME TO IT.
private.
This Isnt About Shirking Responsibility
Just Allowing Yourself To Reach A Point Where The Task Can Be Completed Effective Rather Than Leaping Headfirst Like A Flightless Featherbeast From A Very Tall Precipice
I Dont Know What Knowledge Of My Participation Has Been Publicized
Feferi Was Displeased With It But I Dont Believe Shed Turn Informant
Though I Had Told Susan Prior To Eridans Death
She May Be Far Less Forgiving
private.
WHO THE FUCK IS SUSAN.
private.
Shes Our Auspistice
private.
AND SHE JUST LET YOU DECIDE IT WAS A FINE DAY FOR FISH FILLET, DID SHE?
OR WORSE
YOU COMPLETELY DISREGARDING THE POINT OF AN ASHEN RELATIONSHIP.
MY FUCKING GOD DO WE ALL JUST HAVE AN UNCONTROLLABLE FETISH FOR INSULTING THE QUADRANTS
DOES NOBODY HAVE ANY RESPECT FOR THEM ANYMORE??????????
WHY DON'T WE GO THE FULL HOG AND JUST SHOVE THEM DOWN THE FUCKING LOAD GAPER
WE'LL TAKE A GOOD HARD COLLECTIVE SHIT ALL OVER THEM AND THEN EACH OTHER.
UNBELIEVABLE.
THOUGH AS I'VE SAID TIME AND TIME AGAIN
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU TAKE HUMANS AS QUADRANTMATES.
AND YOU THINK SHE MIGHT TURN YOU IN?
private.
In Fact On The Slim Margin Of Chance This Maneuver Should Prove Permanent Then It Will Rather Effectively End His Darker Ambitions For Me
I Dont Know Whether She Will Report Me Or Not
But She Had A Great Deal To Say About Human Authorities And The Involvement They Should Have In Dealing With Eridan Instead
Despite How Effective That Has Been On The Prior Occasions Where Hes Spilled The Blood Of Others
private.
IT IS ALSO DESIGNED TO KEEP AN UNBALANCED OR OTHERWISE UNADVISABLE FEUD FROM DEGENERATING INTO AN UNMITIGATED BLOODBATH.
AS FOR PERMANENCE, YEAH
IT'D BE FOR THE BEST IF IT WAS.
FOR YOU, ANYWAY.
WHY DO YOU SEEM TO THINK YOUR ACTIONS DON'T HAVE CONSEQUENCES HERE?
DO I HAVE TO SPELL IT OUT FOR YOU?
DO I HAVE TO THROW A YOU A PARADE?
THIS IS OUR SECOND CHANCE, KANAYA.
I KNOW IT IS A SHITTY SECOND CHANCE BUT IT IS A CHANCE ALL THE SAME.
AND I DON'T KNOW WHY THE REST OF YOU ARE SO VIGOROUSLY INTENT ON FUCKING IT UP.
private.
Do You Have Any Grasp Of The Quantity Of Occasions Ive Had To Reign Myself In As He Continued To Abuse This Mythical And All-Important Second Chance Of His
When He Really Never Deserved One To Begin With
Youre Not The First Hes Killed Since His Arrival On This Timeline But The Latest In A Considerable Procession
And Thats Assuming That Im Even Aware Of Each Instance
If Gamzees Being Truthful With Regards To The Citys Mayoral Chieftain Then Theres No Telling How Many More There Are
He Continues This With Little Consequence
So Why Is It When I Finally Respond In The Manner He Has Genuinely Earned That Im The One Who Must Fear Reprisal
private.
I AM IN NO WAY DEFENDING ERIDAN NOR AM I TRYING TO DENY THE FACT THAT HE IS A FILTHY MAGGOT INFESTED WASTE SAUSAGE WHO GOT EXACTLY WHAT WAS COMING TO HIM.
I'M NOT EVEN TALKING ABOUT ERIDAN RIGHT NOW
I'M TALKING ABOUT YOU.
AND I DON'T KNOW
I NEVER SAID ANYTHING ABOUT IT BEING FAIR.
REALLY THIS ENTIRE CONVERSATION IS GEARED TOWARD PREVENTING YOUR REPRISAL.
IN CASE YOU HADN'T NOTICED.
private.
Then There Arent Any Preventative Measures To Be Taken At This Point Now Are There
But If I Must Face Punishment Then I Can Rest In The Knowledge That Its At Least Myself Instead Of The Others
private.
FOR NOW OUR BEST HOPE IS THAT HE DOESN'T COME BACK.
AND THAT YOUR "SUSAN" DOESN'T GO FLAPPING HER CHUTE IN THE BREEZE.
DO YOU HAVE ANYONE YOU CAN STAY WITH IF THIS GETS OUT?
private.
But I Couldnt Just Abdicate My Duties To The Others
private.
WHAT I'VE HEARD FROM GAMZEE SUGGESTS HUMAN PRISON DOESN'T LEND AN ABUNDANCE OF OPPORTUNITIES TO KEEP UP WITH YOUR "DUTIES" EITHER.
private.
Thats Stupid
Im Responsible For At Least Half Of The Households Income
What Will They Do If Im Unable To Provide That
Are The Humans Really So Inconceivably Moronic As To Make Them Suffer Because I Dared Fulfill An Act That Should Have Been Done Long Ago
[ don't even make her consider that they may not even need her, you know how she deals with being useless, man ]
private.
BUT I DON'T THINK THEY REALLY GIVE A SHIT.
THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU HAVE LITERALLY THOUSANDS OF YEARS OF A CULTURAL GAP.
private.
Though Mostly Because I Doubt An Arrangement Like Ours Would Have Really Ever Occurred In The First Place
But They At Least Wouldnt Breathe Down My Neck Over The Just Murder Of A Seadwelling Quasiroyal Would They
private.
THERE WOULD BE NO FUCKING AROUND WITH PRISONS.
private.
If Most Likely Unsuccessful
private.
WHICH IS YOU MADE A REALLY FUCKING DUMB DECISION.
private.
Because Its About The Only Thing Ive Done Recently That I Can Feel Unambiguously Satisfied With
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
Re: private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private. 1/2
Re: private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
private.
(no subject)
(no subject)
dusts off this thread also forgot to private whoops
we'll just figure that perma'd
yes ok
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)